It's been a while, hasn't it?
I can't give apologies for being absent for so long.
Not this time.
Every one of us has...stuff that we have to deal with on a daily basis. Some of us may be dealing with the same stuff but how each of us handles, copes, and deals with it is very different. That stuff can get piled up pretty high but, for the most part, most of us can restructure those piles into more doable bumps and keep going. But what happens when an event so big, bigger than those piles that already exist, comes along to rip apart what has been, until that point, manageable? I compare the feeling to an invisible force throwing a massive, whirling machete into the situation, mixing it up with the stuff that already exists with giant salad tongs then devilishly grins, saying, "Deal with that and still maintain that illusion of strength."
Now that doesn't mean I curled up into the fetal position and gave up (not that I didn't consider that from time to time). It means that I had to let many bumps go unattended for a while as I put my entire focus on another pile I hadn't realized I'd mislabeled as "manageable - until needed". It took that machete mix to make me see the one pile that needed me more than any of the other ones combined. And so, that's what I did.
After a six-month hiatus, I think I have learned how to better manage my bumps and piles of stuff. I've mulched some over, re-prioritized others but did it all in such a way that that main focus is still in my sight so I never lose it again. And I left that machete right there to remind me it'd have no problem bringing me back to what is truly most important.
Basically, the point of my very vague post is this: Life is hard. It was never meant to be easy or we'd never learn to appreciate the good nor deal with the bad appropriately. The most important lesson I've learned is to manage those piles of stuff as best as you can. Do constant inventory to weed through what still needs to be there, recycle/compost was doesn't, and always be wary not to mislabel something as "until needed" as that may be the one pile of stuff that requires the most love, attention, and nurturing.
Happy rest of your day!
PS: Blackbird is the one song that always comes to me in times of uncertainty. For some reason I'll never understand, when I hear it everywhere I go, there's something...someone...I need to take better care of.